its all empty
i dont even have any tears left.
i've given everything so i guess now its time to turn and walk away
simply because you have taken everything from me
leaving me
empty.

i never thought i'd admit to this but seriously spending an entire afternoon infront of a flashing television screen
yelling and screaming vulgarities and swearing and shouting while trying to kill each other with shotguns pistols and what nots is actually a pretty fulfilling way of spending an afternoon and getting my mind off whatever is bothering me.
perfect way to destress and let out all that pent up frustration and irritation.
ben brought his xbox over
so spent like majority of the afternoon playing stupid random killing games
seriously never thought i'd enjoy it but then i guess you'll never know until you try.

i am not sure if you still read here
but i would really like to say a huge thank you
for everything that you have done for me
for always being so unassuming and forgiving and in your own silent way just being you and being there.
listening and never judging or demanding
you never deserved to be treated the way i did you
and i shouldnt have.
perhaps you might never know
but either ways,
thank you
sorry
love.